I wasn't ever going to write about this. I am a horrible writer and I just didn't think I could put into words the whole experience, but I just felt like I was lying by not writing about it.
I had a miscarriage around the middle of January that kinda sent my world spinning. I wasn't far along only 7 weeks but I was so excited and so ready for another baby. I never really had a chance to plan my other two babies but this one was planned out perfectly and I had been planning for forever. Everything went as planned and I was due in the middle of September, exactly what I had wanted. I guess it wasn't meant to be though. It's a shock when you first find out that you might be miscarrying. I searched for hours online hoping that it might be a slight complication and that everything would be fine with the baby. But after a million blood tests it was confirmed that I was miscarrying.
Yes, it has been hard and I am sad, but I am not devastated. I know that this happens a lot to other women and I feel strength in knowing that I am not alone. I am glad it didn't happen when I was farther along and I can't imagine what other women go through when losing a child farther along in their pregnancy. Even though it has been hard there are far greater challenges in life. I think it has helped me learn patience and to just enjoy life the way it comes, instead of obsessing over every little detail. I have learned that no matter how hard I try to control my life there is a plan for me that has already been predetermined and I should just sit back and enjoy the ride. I do not wish to go through this again but I am grateful for the things that I have learned and hopefully me and my little family will be better for it.
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oh man, we are so sorry to hear that!! what a hard thing to go through. keep your head up though. the sun will shine again! we love you guys!
i am so sorry kels! that is such a hard trial to go through. you are so optimistic through it all. you are so amazing! it's a good reminder that we are on the Lord's timetable and not our own. hang in there!
Hi Kelsi! I am so so sorry to hear about you loss. It still hurts no matter how far along you are. This might be weird but I wanted to thank you for sharing. Your words and insight on the Lord's timetable has given me a little hope. I appreciate your positive outlook and reminder to just sit back and "enjoy the ride". Hang in there. We are thinking of you! :-)
Sorry to hear you had to go through that! There are many times in life when we realize the Lord has a plan, and sometimes (or a lot of the time : ) ) it's not exactly in line with your plans. He knows and loves your little family and you're next little munchkin will come when the time is perfect! It took me over a year to get pregnant with my second and I was devastated every month when I wasn't pregnant again, but now I couldn't imagine it any other way : ) sending hugs!
I am so sorry. I had a miscarriage as well it happened exactly 1 year before Tige was born. Although it is so hurtful, Heavenly Father has a plan for us. It will all work out. Hope you're feeling better.
I'm sorry to hear this. It is NEVER easy whether you are 7 weeks or 40weeks losing a baby. I have the unfortunate yet fortunate job of helping woman deliver their demise babies and if I have learned one thing is that it is NEVER NEVER easy and no one fully understands that but the person going through it. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your darling family.
Kelsi, you are so strong. And I am so sorry to hear that you had to/have to go through this. My prayers are with you and your family. Like you said, everything happens for a reason and you will be blessed for the trials you endure. I love you and wish you well.
I am so sorry to hear this news but like Kylee said, thanks for sharing. Its nice to be able to see what other people go through and the amazing ways they handle things to try to motivate ourselves to be better. What a strong woman you are!
You have a great attitude, Life is so unpredicatable. It seems that plans never work out, Luckily God always leaves us better off than we would have planned it to be, in the moment it never makes sense though. That must have been really hard, and also scary. So sorry that you had to go through that. We love you!- Mandi
oh kels, I am so sorry. That is so hard but I'm so glad that we have the gospel! Sevens weeks is long enough to know that you love that little person. you are so amazing and I look up to you so much for your eternal perspective. I didn't have quite as good of a grasp on the Lord's plan when we thought we were miscarrying. i'll be thinking of you!
I know just how you feel. It is so discouraging, but I am glad to hear you know just how to find peace when things get tough and confusing!
love ya kels.
Kelsi I'm thinkin about ya, The only thing i can say is that you WILL get to hold that baby someday. Hang in there.
So sorry to hear that! How hard that must be! Hang in there! I love ya!
Kels, you are alot braver than me... I have yet to post, and scared to death to do so... I just had a miscarriage the week of Christmas. I don't wish that upon anyone, it was super hard. I know it happens to women all the time, but that is the last thing you want to hear when its happening to you. I got super down when the numbness of it all went away. Staying close to the Lord has helped me out alot. Let me know if you need anything. You will be in my prayers!
so sorry to hear your news. what a perspective you have! I can only imagine the roller coaster of emotions you've been having.
lots of love to you guys.
I'm so sorry, Kelsi. I can't even imagine how hard that must be. You are amazing to handle it with so much faith! I hope you're feeling better.
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